Doubts

Was hit by this bout of uncertainty during my train ride back home.
Suddenly I don't feel so sure anymore about my decision - whether or not I'd done the right thing and moving in the right direction.
But I guess this is something I'll never know until my 6 months is up.

On my contract it reads Freelance Photo Journalist. And honestly, the word 'freelance' bothers me a 'lil 'cos it seems to suggest I'm only filling in temporarily and that they have no intention to extend this beyond the period that my service is required. So perhaps it's not like a trial at all.

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Look at the birds in the sky; they do not sow or reap, they gather nothing into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are not you more important than they? Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span? Why are you anxious about clothes? Learn from the way the wild flowers grow. They do not work or spin. But I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was clothed like one of them. If God so clothed the grass of the field, which grows today and is thrown into the oven tomorrow, will he not much more provide for you, O you of little faith?
Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself.

Wish I have this much more faith.